Accepting I'm a cocksucker

I am 46 and finally accepted who/what I am.
I started experimenting with my older sister's underwear when I was 12 the feeling and look of female underwear and clothes really intrigued me and aroused me.
I was 15 when I had my first sexual experience with a girl and from start to finish I only lasted less than one minute, this has been normal for me my entire life.
When I was 21 I started a relationship with a girl who was 3 years younger than me and I was immediately in her's and her older sister's drawers and especially their laundry baskets hunting for their dirty knickers. Their scents used to drive me wild with lust and I would wear their underwear as much as possible when I was alone.
It took her about a year of tolerating my premature ejaculation issues for her to to have her first affair and over the next 7 years there many more. While it hurt and I felt embarrassed that my girlfriend was getting fucked properly by other men it also turned me on and I would masturbate thinking about it.
I joined swingers dating sites and posted pictures of myself dressed in women's lingerie, stockings, suspenders, thongs and bras and it wasn't long before I was getting lots of attention from men.
I would tell them my story as to how I was on the site because my girlfriend was having sex with other men and they would offer the condolences and ask if they could fuck her. After I explained she didn't know anything about me being on an adult site they then began offering to fuck me or requesting I give them oral sex. After six months of this I became very curious I was getting more aroused as I was dressed as a woman and wanting to stay in that feeling. I met my first man when I was 24 and I sucked his cock in his car. It felt totally natural to me the smell the taste and feel of his cock. I sucked him for 5 minutes until he cum in my mouth and I instinctively swallowed every last drop and from that moment I was hooked.
I began meeting more men and within a few weeks of tasting my first cock I was on all fours on a guy's bed with him sliding his cock into me for the first time.
The sensation was intense, slightly uncomfortable but hugely pleasant and after the first initial few thrusts my bum relaxed and he began to fuck me with a natural rhythm. This was the best sex I had had up until that moment, he complimented me on how well I took his cock and how tight my hole was .
At that point I orgasmed purely from having his cock inside me and he was very pleased with himself that he's made me orgasm. As my desire began to fade and the hard reality of the situation began to set in I felt embarrassed and disgusted with myself but also I felt I had a duty to stick it out until he orgasmed as that would be only fair.
10 minutes later he orgasmed inside me and I was as quick as I could be to get home and dressed in my own clothes again.
A few days passed and again the desire began to grow and I was again online hunting for me.
Now 20 years, 4 women and 70+ men later I now know my place in the world.
I am a submissive sissy cocksucker and cum dump for real men.

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Steve Sex October 28, 2026 at 10:06 am 2 0