bad situation all round

I am a girl and I loved this lady I met once a lot. I needed help but did not know how to get help being so shy. I wish I knew why love is so painful. in life we find so many people to love in different ways not just sexual but in many ways. why? I never ment to hurt her. I never ment to do her harm. I could not face my own painful reality but my dreams were telling that I was linked to this person. I find it hard to believe she would have got me raped but sometimes I wonder. I don't know the truth I speak in anger but feel bad and guilty for it. yet would she get a fat man to rape me when? why does she hate me? or is it her son that really hates me. he does not like me. I have tried to explain to him but he just keeps liking everyone else. he won't listen. and I don't like this other man anyway. I am caught between a demon and a monster and I just want out of this.

I wish I had a new man to turn to. I do like ben a great deal but worry that I could harm his career and maybe I am too old for him.

there has to be more guys out there who have qualities who will like me.

there has to be someone.
I just wish their will had of listened to me or his mother. I wish they had helped me not betray or use me.

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anonymous Other June 14, 2013 at 12:00 am 0 0