whats goin on with me

I am just a 21 years old girl.a freak girl..a jobless girl I still living with my parent. I'm not a spoiled child and I am not rich too (I wish I was)
I seriously need to get out from this family because I can't get along with my stepfather. We had a very serious fight before..We tried to communicate but it was end up hurting each other. I wont try no more.
I'm an introvert and I don't have many friends.I spend most of my time with my laptop. I don't have a boyfriend. I contacted many guys through the internet(through social networking),some of them wanted me so bad but didn't give a strong effort to get me. I'm not a hot girl. I guess I look photogenic in my profile pictures. My teeth is ugly and I think I should need braces..Everytime I met a guy,I would tell him everything including my teeth's condition..why?it's simple,I want them to know the real me.
Tonight,I'm feeling alone. And need someone to talk to.Even though we have someone that we trust so much,but not all of our secrets should be revealed. I finished my studies on May...I became a cashier at a shop..The salary wasnt enough for living,I could get other job but I knew I could wait for advancement. But then,my mom had a fight with my stepfather.and we decided to run away from him and we did...we lived at my uncle's house for one month and a half.But mom couldnt find a good job. Mom decided to work on a night club. I didnt say anything about it but the truth was,I was so sad that time.
Then,mom decided to get back to my bad stepfather. I was so mad.Why would she do this to me? I lost my job because of the running. I feel completely useless now.Now,here we are,living together again at the same roof. I'm just counting the days because I know something will happen eventually.
I hope everything will be okay..

Why would God choose me to take this path?Why did he give me this fate? I want to have a normal family,a normal life...I don't want anything but my family back.

Dad?never cares about me.He never calls me.
He is happy with his new family. :(

Love?I had a long term boyfriend(2008-2012) but we were young and we hurt each other.Since that day,I'm not confident with myself.. :(

Lonely?Yes,I am so lonely.

Thanks for reading my life story.
I guess I will give this link as a present for you guys.
h t t p://****. youtube . com/watch?v=Z1O-Ik-THrQ
Its very meaningful to me.

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anonymous Other December 26, 2012 at 12:00 am 0 0